Last term was the worst term for me coz i failed a subject and its hard to accept it coz i only needed 3 more pts in the finals and i already have 2 correct answers which i changed and that really made me feel a lot more depressd... but i guess thats life and many people olweiz say thats part of college... all i can do now is to study harder,,, huhuhuhuh!!!! that day was also one of the worst days i've had coz after school i went to FEU to meet my pare just to know that she and her BF is fightin... but that's a long story... :)

Forget about school its summer but damn its so boring,, and im olweiz here at home using the pc or watchin tv or playin my beloved guitar (HEHE!!!) thats how boring my summer is ryt now... and ryt now im happy how my life is goin ryt now not before that i olweiz feel sad, depressd and there was also a tym that i was hurt /*LINES MISSING*/ but now im just tryin my best to forget about it coz nothin's gonna change if would olweiz think about it "LIVE UR LIFE 2 D FULLEST" and "LIFE GOES ON"... ehehehe!!!

May 23 is fast approaching and i dunno what im feelin coz i feel excited and nervous at the same time,,, excited maybe bcoz its a new beginning and im excited to see my frendz again coz i really miss them and nervous coz startin this term im an irregular student... WAAH!! Well thats it for now coz im so sleepy ryt now... hehehe il just try to update regularly (ASA!!!)

My emotions ryt now are full of ups and downs bcoz ryt now i dont know what i am feeling for her... I dont know if i really love her or im just in a state of infatuation... I dont know why im feeling this for you even though sometimes you are the reason why i am sad and depressd... sometimes i feel bad bcoz i have told you a lot especially my feelings whenver it comes to you and your frend and yet i dont know if you really listened to me bcoz i didnt see anything change its still the same... what is it thats in you that could make me feel so concernd about you and make me fall for you bt i know that i cant let you know what i am feeling for you because there are consequences that i must face and i can think of some and i really dont want those to happen and it could be a cause for a feud between me and your frend... He might get JEALOUS once again but i dont know why he should be bcoz /* LINES MISSING *> (in case you read this you know what i mean!!!) why am i falling for you??? why?! deep inside of me i can still feel that i still love marianne but i still wasnt able to tell her about it bcoz i know ryt now i still cant balance my tym becz marianne is far away and its hard after what i am feeling ryt now... sometimes whenver b4 i go to sleep i am thinking about u and i am telling myself what should i do and i pray to god to please help me bcoz i really dont know what to do... sometimes i think about courting u but after thinking about that i am thinking of what could happen next and i know that if i let u know about it everything could change it could be for the better or worse... every day i always think about it and my bhest told me once that " BAKIT KA BA NGPAPAKA-GAGO SKNYA EH MRAMI PA NMNG IBA DYN?! " i also remember one nyt she also told me " CGURDO KA NA BA SA NRARAMDAMAN MO PRA SKNYA? " and my answer to that was "EWAN KO!!! NAGUGULUHAN NA AKO!!!" i also asked my frends about their answer that if i should tell it or dont but when pre and my bestfrend told me "WAG" i decided not to even though i know that it will be very hard for me bcoz i can feel the pain whenever i see you with him or with the other one but maybe i just have to accept the fact that you will never be mine and cannot be mine... its hard but to i have to make this sacrifice for the better... i just wanna say im sorry for everything that i have told you and now the pain is still there but if you;re happy with whats happening ryt now then go so be it besides would you listen to me?! i know that you wont...

SUNDAY - my mom woke me up at 10 bcoz we were going to go to the church then while in the mass kristine texted me and asked me if i can be in the 18 roses i couldnt reply bcoz the mass was still ongoing then she called me and i said yes... i was really flattered at that point bcoz that is the first debut i will attend. then went home at makati at 4 then online again. at night i talked once again to my pare and.

MONDAY - today is one hell of a very happy day for me... but first i woke up at 5 to study introds bcoz today is the exam then relsone we discussed something which is some sort of review then praktis the song again. oh my god introds time its time for the test. i was really nervous bcoz i wasnt that really prepared for the test. the test was quite ok somehow hard but i know i answered some of the items correctly. then break time we ate at agno then me and alain went to the room and while waiting for the time i played the guitar and mighty and mark were acting the song like mtv style. HAHAHAHA!!!! then introso. he discussed the upcoming midterm exams. then dismissal the berks are going home right away so i went with annie and jerome at the ELL then me and annie went to Bjay's condo to hang around and annie was making this thing at the photoshop it was somehow cute even though we kept on joking at it... i left there at 4:30 bcoz i will go to the barber shop but there was just one barber available and many are waiting so i decided to go home but b4 that i ate "ISAW, and other barbecue stuff but it was internal organs of i dont know pig or chicken" then walked all the way to my home... then tonight my bhest texted me that she will go to DLSU tom. i was shocked so i called her immediately then while we were talking i dont know she seems so happy. but i know the reason why HEHEHEHEHE!!!! then someone unexpected texted me asking how am i so i called her back. finally after a long time we were able to talk once again and i really love this gal!!!! her name ******E hehe thats the clue... that is why i am so happy ryt now bcoz of something she told me about...

there continuing to do the dissolve issue after a long talk the vice dean told us that there is nothing we can do to open our section once again so there we go... looked for a sked that will not affect our original sked... so there we played CS for a while to kill some time then i went to the lobby and i saw "spongebob, and marco" marco is our frend from the engineering... i adjusted my section to s12 bcoz c35 was closed so there... time to go home when i got home i was so pissed bcoz the house was still locked and i have no key so i went to my old school just to get the key from my sis then i went home once again... so there i was just watching tv and then slept early bcoz my class on fri. is at 7...

FRIDAY --- September 17, 2004
this day i woke up at around 5 bcoz i have to liv at 5:30 so there i was riding the fx to school when a very cute girl went in and she seated in front of me... but i was studying for relsone bcoz we have a quiz... so there when i reached pedro gil i was done studying and time after time i was looking at her bcoz i was really attracted to her and then i did not notice that i was already there so i immediately went down hoping that the girl was from DLSU also... then when i went in i saw spongebob walking and we hang around until "RAE" came... so there we went to the room of s12 and then our teacher helped us with everything...

ENGLISH TIME!!!! --- the teacher created some brain teasers but it was fun somhow... then she divided the class into 6 groups. so me and rae are on the same group with 2 girls and the activity was all about reading... i wasnt shy bcoz i was able to adjust quickly and it turns out that i will do some acting and reporting things... but its okay looks like fun,.. we will present our presentation on tuesday...

RELSONE!!! ---- time for the quiz but it was a group quiz instead. we were divided into 4 groups and our representative will be JACQ and then we were the 1st one... after all the questions our teacher graded us 4.0 (WOOHHOOOO!!!!) it felt great we got a perfect grade on our 1st quiz... the other groups scored high points also... and thats all....

INTRODS!!!----she gave us a seatwork and damn i cant answer it then i realized that there are things that i wasnt doing properly so im sure i will fail the 1st seatwork then she gave us an assignment... but still our teacher is cute... hehehehe!!!!

INTROSO!!! --- its time 4 mr angel face.... we had a quiz but it was easy it got 7 out of 8 answers... then we proceeded to the dramatization and the 2 groups were great especially marce bcoz he was the comedian in their group... everyone was laughing about what he is doing... thats all

we played cs after class and then we waited saw JB while we were hanging around at the LS bldg. and we decided to play cs once again... so there we played for about 2 hrs. and i only have 40 pesos left and that enough to get me home so there i went home right away... i just watched tv and then slept...

SATURDAY --- September 18, 2004
it was the 1st day of my CWTS class and i arrived school at around 8:30 bcoz i waited for my bhest b4 i went to school we were together until she reached FEU... at CWTS there are a lot of people in my class and i dont know anybody from there so there i was very quiet... and the substitute facilitator was discussing everything and then lastly we had a group activity but i didnt contribute anything bcoz i dont feel like talking... so there after the activity we were dismissed imagine that me not talking for 3 hrs... so there i went to the room of s14 and luckily they were dismissed b4 i came so there we decided to eat then  we went to Wendy's bcoz the rotc aint finished yet... so there after eating we played cs at UM with the bags of snoopy and felix with us but we were trying to contact them but their cellphones was inside their bags so there billy and spongebob picked them up when they came we were almost finished... we went out quickly and i am trying to joke snoopy but she wasnt reacting so there i know that shes already mad at us i felt really bad that time and i told myself i will try to contact later (SNOOPY Im Really Sorry!!!!!!) so there me, rae, and billeh went to max3d bcoz belino, nixon, and mr. yang are there playing we stayed there for about an hour and i played for 30 min. only then our plan of watching the exorcist was cancelled so i just went home and i watched garfield b4 sleeping...

SUNDAY --- September 19, 2004
my family and i were planning to go to the cemetery bcoz it was the death anniv of my auntie so there it was also the final 4 match between ADMU and DLSU... i was only able to watch the juniors game but i wasnt able to finish it bcoz we left already... so there i was at the cemetery praying and then after my uncle and i jammed me playing the guitar and he was singing particularly BEAUTY and MADNESS my favorite!!!... after that we went to the fort to eat it was great i was full and then went home to play NBA LIVE!!!! my uncle's frends were at home so i just surfed the net... thats all

TODAY -- MONDAY --- September 20, 2004
today was another week for class i was at school pretty early bcoz me and spongebob will meet i will ask 4 help at introds... yehey we didnt have our relsone class today so there i just hanged around the room talking to anybody... and then time 4 INTRODS she gave us 1st a seatwork it was so easy but when she discussed the next part (OH MY GOD!!!) what was that... it was really hard but i understood it a little bit... so there after that we ate at AGNO and then headed to the room once again playing around... oh im sorry felix!!!!! hehehehehe!!!!! so there introso time he gave us something to read but i liked the story even though it has a sad ending... so there we discussed it and the discussion was really fun... it was all about love... i can somehow relate... thats all after dismissal me, JB, and marce ate at agno once again and then went to the MRDO to get our notes for englone... afterwards went home with ken.... thats all finally a new update